So the Disneyland trip was amazing. I was there with my mom, Giulianna, my aunt Carol, Uncle Jerry, cousins Chris and Heather and their 2 kids Von and Olivia.
First day, I slept most of it sleeping as I didn't feel well from the plane ride and my leg was hurting, but the time change also didn't help. I talked to Eddie that night and talked about how we missed each other. We talked about going on a trip once all this was over. He talked about redoing his back yard to make it like a little getaway for me. He said this way I can relax and think I am on vacation every day I was there. he was so sweet.
Thursday - we went to Huntington beach. It was so nice and we had a good meal at the local restaurant. Spending time with the family is the best medicine. Getting the support and love is amazing. Heather and Chris were the only 2 that knew about my medial condition besides my mother so they kept it in check. I did a lot of walking and was in some pain. I talked to Eddie that night. He was very upset about me being in pain. He told me to get a wheelchair or a scooter for Friday. I said no I can do it. He went over how much I am hurting today and how much I will hurt tomorrow. I agreed but didn't want to be that person. I want to be normal. He said, "None of this is normal."
Friday - We went to Magic Kingdom. We walked 6.5 miles and had a great day. But by 8:30pm, I could no longer walk. My legs hurt so bad that I was crying. We decided to leave. So this is where it gets interesting. My mom was about running out of the park as I was literally trying not to fall over. We got on the train to go to the car. I just wanted to die right there. The pains in my legs, back and head were so bad. I got into the car and that was it. The thoughts of getting out and trying to walk to the hotel room lingered in my brain. As I sit in the seat, my mom was already at the room. My aunt waited with me. I finally told my aunt. My aunt hugged me as I cried. She said "I am so sorry you have to go through this." She explained that my mom tried to explain it to her but couldn't and called it bone cancer. I explained what I had and my aunt said, "I know exactly what it is, I worked on the caner floor as a nurse for over 25 years." She walked with me slowly to the room as I was in tears. Again I talked to Eddie before I went to bed. Eddie was upset that I was in pain and he couldn't be here. He again talked to me about a wheelchair or a scooter. He stated, "If you can't afford it I will send you money. Please babe you can't go through that pain again." I told him I would sleep on it and let him know in the AM.
Saturday - We went back to Disneyland. And Yes I caved and got a scooter. That day was a lot better. less pain. Although being in a scooter in the park that was packed with people is HELL. You can only see has high as people's asses. But at least I was able to walk without complete pain. Made for a much better day. We had fun and enjoyed my time with my daughter. Now, I know your wondering how I got away with this as my daughter still has yet to know about the CANCER. I have had back and leg problems for over 6 years. So we told her that mommy's back and legs were really bother her and that the scooter was to help her get through the day. She was all for it.
Sunday - Today we left. Had to be on the plane at 3:30pm. We said our goodbyes. I didn't want to leave as this was a break from reality. I didn't have to think about doctor's and what my life was going to be like for the next year or more. Was I going to live or die? What was going to happen? Eddie met us at the airport at 12am. Don't forget I talked to him every day. But seeing him was amazing. He gave me the biggest hug and kiss. I told him how much I missed him. He had snack s and water in the car for us.
You always think about what you want your significant other to be like. And this is it. He is always worried about me. He always takes care of me and is always concerned about me. He is what you want in someone you want to be with for the rest of your life.
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