February 6, 2017

Biopsy

This is the only day my mom took me to FCCC. She has been banned. We went for a biopsy of my bone marrow. It was to be a local. Well the pain was to much for me to handle. The doctor decided that I need to be put under.

During this time he reviewed how treatment would work. I told my mom take out the book and write it down. My mom wrote 3 letters. I had just been given a pill called Adavant. So I had no idea what the doctor fully said about treatment. Thank god he reviewed it with me and Dayna the following day.  Dayna took  copious notes  and was able to review with me on the way home.

Upon coming home I asked mom what the letters meant, she said "I don't know the doctor talked to fast." I explained you can't go "numb and dumb" at the doctors with me. You are my eyes and ears. If you can't handle it others will. So at that she has been banned as she knows she can't handle it and will not be able to listen. I go "numb and dumb" at certain words.

There is an illusion that as a parent you can handle anything. Well that all changes once you are told your child had cancer. At any age..... Over the months I have learned with the help from her sisters that my mother can make my food, do my laundry and clean but I'm no aspects handle the fact that her child had cancer.