February 20, 2017

I had off for Presidents' Day. Eddie and I decided it would be good to sit and talk. We went to his house as I can't really eat much fast food it bothers my stomach. So maybe this could go well. We have talked a little over the weekend nothing big just normal. As we sit through dinner we talk about normal things. I told him how I told gilly and her response. We talked about doing a trip together on a Disney cruise after it is all over. He said that his granddaughter would love it and gilly and her would get along so well.

After dinner, he talked he explained that he got scared because when he was in Cooper he remembered being there with his father and sister. He remembered that both were diagnosed with cancer and then both died within days of the diagnosis or coming home. He told me when he saw me there it was flash backs of dad. He explained he went into business mood in the hospital and got pissed at himself for not knowing answers to my medical questions that he should know!

Small history lesson - Eddie's father died November 2015 and his wife left April 2016 with the final divorce August 2016! He asked me out September 29, 2017!

So during this conversation he told me his entire Jared history with woman. His first marriage and how he just left. How he got up one day left because he couldn't handle It any more. How he left this wonderful woman and her kid because it was all too much!!! How his second marriage they wouldn't communicate probably and when he would see it happening every 3 years he would take a day off to fix it. But it was never really fixed because this past time when he took off they were not talking at all and when he went to talk she said "I am leaving." He told me she packed her bags and left. He continued by telling me that he thought they would get back together even up through the divorce papers and she is with another man!
He talked about how he cares about me and wants to be there for me. He talked about how he really isn't good at relationships.
When it was time to leave, he was like you need to leave we can't have sex and you turn me on so much! I laughed. It was also 9pm and I needed to get home to take my meds.

The confusion part of this whole process is at no point during this conversation did he say I don't want a relationship or do I not want to be in a relationship.

MEN call women confusing but I really think MEN are just as confused..